anxiety

So here's thing....I am having 30 women over to my house tomorrow....

I am hosting my friend Shanna's shower; so everyone (and their kids!) are coming to celebrate the birth of her daughter, Maci Lynn. Most of these women I work with, so having them over is not a huge deal, but I have to admit, I am not great with company..we are also still renovating our house, and it's certainly not the prettiest house, by any stretch of the means. Again, this should be a concern, but my anxiety is lying with some of the physicians who are coming to my house; who have money, beautiful homes and more than I do.

Yes, I know this shallow, and silly of me, but I can't help feeling very anxious about these people seeing my inner sanctum....why? Simple...fear of being judged...

I have always been pretty self-assured and confident, but for some reason, this is bothering me now. Not sure why...just is. And the irony is, I brought this on myself. I am the one who invited these people, thinking int he back of my mind that they wouldn't come...that'll teach me.....