Proposal....

I wrote my first academic proposal this week.....I have been so afarid to do this; I am not sure why or what about it was so un-nerving that I never made the leap before...

I am asking for educational opportunity; when i started the process I decided I needed to try and get this for the sake of trying.  I told myself, "you'll never know unless you try," and considering that is the advice I offered to my dear friend last week, I figured I owed it to her to do the same....even if it was on a much smaller scale.....

Except I am worried now that I actually want to do it.....

Don't get me wrong, before I wrote the thing; I thought it would be awesome to go and do, but now that I have put in some effort, I really want it to happen.  I know logically, that they will reject my request, since they NEVER give money and esspecially NEVER to lowly peons like me who merely deliver the service they state they provide.

But I still really believe that I am in a position to make people's lives easier for them to live.  And I still want to do that....

How cliche is that?

Then my boss came in an didn't completely shit on it; which made me wonder if there is any chance for success.....

And the kicker?  One of my mentors will be town in that week; so if  I get this
opportunity, I will miss my chance to see him....

I'll keep you posted...